I'm not sleeping.
And when I do sleep it isn't restful, but comes in fits and starts.
In the past 10 days the only full night of rest I've had was this past tuesday night when I slept at my place in preparation for the interview.
That night I crawled into bed, set the alarm, turned off the light, and woke up 7 glorious hours later to my alarm.
The only night of full sleep in 10 days.
Last night, I got just two hours.
Taken one at a time.
This just isn't working.
I'mma go work now.
Will fill you in on the interview (it went well) and St. Patrick's Day (I got quite drunk) later.
-gets no sleep
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
the thick of it
The weekend was good, a much needed break.
Today started a very long week for me.
2 days on, wed off, and then another 6 straight.
Oh, and I got the call today for an interview at CAL. It'll be on Wednesday, so fingers crossed for me okay?
Other than that I've been doing pretty well. SweetD and I had dinner at Benihana on Thursday night, which would have been about perfect had the night not ended with an argument in regards to marriage and commitment and whatnot.
Meh.
I feel bad that I can't give her what she wants, but...I just can't. I'm trying, but it just doesn't seem like it's going to happen. She said something that night that just won't leave my head...
She said "You just want to spend time with me when you want to spend time with me."
To which I responded "Well don't you just want to spend time with me when you want to?"
"But I ALWAYS want to spend time with you!"
Exactly.
Because if we get down to the thick of it, I don't have any need to see her every day or spend all of my time with her. That's sad, and probably not cool...but it's also true.
I care about her very much. I want her to be happy. I've put this off long enough...but the longer it goes the more it seems that I really just am not the right man for her.
On a side note...I have a new anonymous reader. I kinda thought it was SweetD to be honest, but the internet provider doesn't match. Whomever it is lives pretty close by though...so hello new reader. Please feel free to say hi sometime and introduce yourself k?
Okay.
-angst ridden blogger
Today started a very long week for me.
2 days on, wed off, and then another 6 straight.
Oh, and I got the call today for an interview at CAL. It'll be on Wednesday, so fingers crossed for me okay?
Other than that I've been doing pretty well. SweetD and I had dinner at Benihana on Thursday night, which would have been about perfect had the night not ended with an argument in regards to marriage and commitment and whatnot.
Meh.
I feel bad that I can't give her what she wants, but...I just can't. I'm trying, but it just doesn't seem like it's going to happen. She said something that night that just won't leave my head...
She said "You just want to spend time with me when you want to spend time with me."
To which I responded "Well don't you just want to spend time with me when you want to?"
"But I ALWAYS want to spend time with you!"
Exactly.
Because if we get down to the thick of it, I don't have any need to see her every day or spend all of my time with her. That's sad, and probably not cool...but it's also true.
I care about her very much. I want her to be happy. I've put this off long enough...but the longer it goes the more it seems that I really just am not the right man for her.
On a side note...I have a new anonymous reader. I kinda thought it was SweetD to be honest, but the internet provider doesn't match. Whomever it is lives pretty close by though...so hello new reader. Please feel free to say hi sometime and introduce yourself k?
Okay.
-angst ridden blogger
Wednesday, March 09, 2011
I'm older and whatnot
My birthweek was fantastic!
I had good food and enjoyed good times with good folks.
Woot!
Let's see let's see...
Thursday my Dad came by so a group of us hit a burger joint locally and hung out for a bit. Then on Friday I picked up OT here at the office, followed by dinner with the whole family at Chi Sushi here in the Woodlands. I'm pretty sure I've mentioned it before, but that place is fantastic. An order of hot sake', some sushi...which my sister even tried and enjoyed. Then a big plate of tempura. Good times.
My Mom is pretty set in her ways foodwise so my Dad doesn't get to venture out and enjoy some of the more exotic things that I can tell he likes...so this was kind of a treat for him. He really enjoyed the sushi. Seeing how happy he was with the food kind of made my day...it was like a bonus birthday gift to me. heh
Afterwards, a few of us hit Coldstone at Market Street for some ice cream...because I was totally craving it and it was my birthday, so there!
Mmmm then Saturday morning I met...we'll just call her CapitalA for the moment (Monkey...please help me with a nicname for her yeah?)
I met CapitalA at the mall and the two of us ran into Hubbell and Hudsons to grab a few items for the weekend trip to Austin. Then away we went...like 2 hours later than planned...but we were on our way!
Austin was hella fun.
The sis headed up later and we all stayed at Monkey's house with her Husband and their little one. CapitalA and Monkey set up a scavenger hunt for the 12 gift cards they bought me. Had me searching around the house like a kid on Easter. It was hilarious though. I'm glad they did it. That night was a lovely dinner of roast chicken and vegetables prepared by Monkey. Oh, and CapitalA provided a crap ton of cupcakes for the weekend too.
We all stayed up drinking and playing games until the wee hour of 2330. That's right, I was in bed before midnight...because I'm old now. haha
Anyway, then sunday morning I finished my kite and we headed to the Austin Kite Festival at Zilker park. It was so much fun. We had a picnic with all the food from Hubbell and Hudsons plus fruit and drinks provided by Monkey and crew.
I got lots of compliments on the artwork for my kite...but it didn't fly. It just wasn't stable. Meh. I'm learning and I still had fun.
Okay...the minions have gathered around like a gaggle of vultures...they want to go home early. Must get to work. Have a lovely night.
-employee of the month
I had good food and enjoyed good times with good folks.
Woot!
Let's see let's see...
Thursday my Dad came by so a group of us hit a burger joint locally and hung out for a bit. Then on Friday I picked up OT here at the office, followed by dinner with the whole family at Chi Sushi here in the Woodlands. I'm pretty sure I've mentioned it before, but that place is fantastic. An order of hot sake', some sushi...which my sister even tried and enjoyed. Then a big plate of tempura. Good times.
My Mom is pretty set in her ways foodwise so my Dad doesn't get to venture out and enjoy some of the more exotic things that I can tell he likes...so this was kind of a treat for him. He really enjoyed the sushi. Seeing how happy he was with the food kind of made my day...it was like a bonus birthday gift to me. heh
Afterwards, a few of us hit Coldstone at Market Street for some ice cream...because I was totally craving it and it was my birthday, so there!
Mmmm then Saturday morning I met...we'll just call her CapitalA for the moment (Monkey...please help me with a nicname for her yeah?)
I met CapitalA at the mall and the two of us ran into Hubbell and Hudsons to grab a few items for the weekend trip to Austin. Then away we went...like 2 hours later than planned...but we were on our way!
Austin was hella fun.
The sis headed up later and we all stayed at Monkey's house with her Husband and their little one. CapitalA and Monkey set up a scavenger hunt for the 12 gift cards they bought me. Had me searching around the house like a kid on Easter. It was hilarious though. I'm glad they did it. That night was a lovely dinner of roast chicken and vegetables prepared by Monkey. Oh, and CapitalA provided a crap ton of cupcakes for the weekend too.
We all stayed up drinking and playing games until the wee hour of 2330. That's right, I was in bed before midnight...because I'm old now. haha
Anyway, then sunday morning I finished my kite and we headed to the Austin Kite Festival at Zilker park. It was so much fun. We had a picnic with all the food from Hubbell and Hudsons plus fruit and drinks provided by Monkey and crew.
I got lots of compliments on the artwork for my kite...but it didn't fly. It just wasn't stable. Meh. I'm learning and I still had fun.
Okay...the minions have gathered around like a gaggle of vultures...they want to go home early. Must get to work. Have a lovely night.
-employee of the month
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
today is my birthday
For reals!
It's been a good day too.
The sis bought me a book to add to my growing collection...The Bread Bible...Woot!
Also, a knife that I lost over a year ago came back to me. I got it from my grandad...so it's kindof a big deal to me. Totally random, but I apparently lost it in the office, and a coworker had it out on his desk tonight...
I asked him about it and he was all "yeah, I found it forever ago...why? Is it yours?"
Holy crapola...what a great birthday gift?
One of the minions bought me a cake, and a good friend stopped by the office with my order of apple pie moonshine.
The only down side to this bright day is that I had to work.
Hope you all enjoyed my birthday as much as I have.
I'm out.
-smells like a monkey
It's been a good day too.
The sis bought me a book to add to my growing collection...The Bread Bible...Woot!
Also, a knife that I lost over a year ago came back to me. I got it from my grandad...so it's kindof a big deal to me. Totally random, but I apparently lost it in the office, and a coworker had it out on his desk tonight...
I asked him about it and he was all "yeah, I found it forever ago...why? Is it yours?"
Holy crapola...what a great birthday gift?
One of the minions bought me a cake, and a good friend stopped by the office with my order of apple pie moonshine.
The only down side to this bright day is that I had to work.
Hope you all enjoyed my birthday as much as I have.
I'm out.
-smells like a monkey
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